So I am just sitting here thinking.. WOW my daughter is 9 months old, YOU are 9 months old! How is this even possible, it seems like we just brought you home from the hospital yesterday. The past 9 months has been an amazing journey for us and I can only imagine what the future holds for our sweet little family.
Mia, thank you, thank you for making me a mom, I am forever grateful that I get to be your mom. You see, I knew I wanted to be a mom, but I knew that it would happen when the timing was right. God has a plan for everyone. When we found out that we had you, princess Mia on the way it was a shock to us, but we knew it God’s timing. He has a plan for you and wanted you here. While pregnant with you time went by fast but slow at the same time. I couldn’t wait to meet you, to see what you looked like, would you have any of my features or would you be your daddy’s twin. I prayed everyday for you, I prayed for the woman you’d become and hope I could raise you to be a strong, confident, and beautiful woman of God.
The day you entered the world, changed my life forever. You made ME a mom…it sometimes still sounds so weird to me. I am a mom, I am your mom. This was a huge life changing event, the biggest one I have ever experienced in my life. I couldn’t believe I was so lucky to have gotten the chance to experience something so great, I get to call myself your mom. Meeting you for the first time I felt something I never felt before. It’s as if you were what I needed this entire time, you filled a hole in my heart that I didn’t even know was there. That’s the thing about God.. he ALWAYS gives us what we need. It’s not about wants, because our wants are most of the time selfish and meaningless, especially when he has a bigger plan for us. I am blessed and forever grateful to be your mama.
My sweet princess, I have loved and cherished every minute with you, like I said these last 9 months have flown by. If I’m this emotional at 9 months, I’m not sure how I can handle one year. I know that these little moments will not last forever. It has been so amazing to watch you grow and see how fast time truly does pass. I can’t wait to see the little person you grow into.. although I wish I could pause time forever. I want to pause time because, I want to memorize your little smiles, you blunt facial expressions, your little giggles and laughs, the way you hold my fingers until you fall asleep. It’s upsetting at how fast time truly does pass because I want the moments of you being this little to last forever. Oh but what a joy you have been, it’s been so exciting experiencing all of your firsts and my firsts together. you have brought so much love and laughter into not only my life but the lives others that cross your path. These moments truly are special to me, it’s so exciting to watch you roll over, sit up, crawl, and now STAND. Just crazy to me how fast time is flying. I can’t wait for the joy and excitement I will have when you start walking on your own. I pray for your future and I pray for God to give me the strength I will need to let you go and grow.
I want you to know something. I have loved you to the moon and back and will forever.. I have prayed for you more times than I even knew I could. God knew I needed you first to make me into the mommy I needed to be. YOU did that. From the all nighters, to the times I didn’t want to lay you down when you fell asleep. I could just sit there and stare at you all hours of the night even though I knew I needed to get some rest. The time I first heard your little laugh made my heart want to just burst with joy and love, to the times you would just cry so loud and I had no idea what to do, to the times all you needed was your mommy and you’d be fine. YOU made me into the mom that I needed to be and that you needed. Being a mom to you has been the best gift of my life!
Mia, just know that we’re going to grow together and I am so very excited to see what the future holds. I know that I’ll have to let you go one day. But you my little angel will fly, you will do amazing things just like God has planned for you. But until it’s time for me to let you go, I hope time slows down a little and the days get longer, but if they don’t I want you to know you will always be my first and I will never forget that.